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Thursday, September 18th, 2008
12:15 pm	deleting livejournal. from now on meander this http://thenthecopsshowedup.blogspot.com xolegs (Comment on this)
Friday, August 22nd, 2008
5:46 pm	i have been ignoring life, making minimum wage, and drinking all of it away, and spending most of my time watching tv shows on the internet, and sleeping. i think this is depression but im just kinda ignoring feeling anything. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 7th, 2008
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Thursday, May 1st, 2008
7:56 pm	lonely. too lazy to eat. kind of hungry. mostly lonely. what a whiner i turn out to be sometimes. (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 13th, 2008
8:53 pm	i had this weird dream where i was visiting people in prison, but in order to do that i had to jump into this round cage thing that was the jail on display for the public to view. then i would only get a few seconds before it started to be lifted up and id have to jump out at the right moment in order to grab onto this streetlamp and swing onto a nearby roof. then the dream switches to a work dream, where im really frazzled and all of the sudden i just tell my dispatcher im quitting and hand over my bag and my radio and all my trips. then theres a part where a bunch of dogs cross the street really fast except its a really busy street so one of them gets hit, and all of the sudden its like i travel back in time in the dream to where my dispatcher is just getting out of his car. like its a chance for me to save the car-hit dog by not quitting. but instead i instantly quit again, and hes all confused and im like "whatever man, i just quit. thats it, i quit." i think i need a new job. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 10th, 2008
8:06 pm	going to see cat power tonight. whoa, never thought that would happen. a boy bought me a ticket. i dont know what to think. im bad at these things. dressing up fancy? although my roomate kenny taught me a sweet trick for getting fluff off really black clothes. packing tape, around your hand a bunch! so genius! im wearing makeup even. jesus. t-minus a month and a bit until i move in by myself/go to toronto for a weekend of sausage party beer fest on bicycles. awesome. i havent been hanging out as much. just wanted to say, carrie, taylor, miranda, oats, andrea, juls. so glad i have you as friends in my life. for serious. of course im not excluding everyone else, but these few get big ups. also big ups to roomates. awesome. i would explode if i only had suits in elevators and chainsmoking couriers to talk to every day. okay, i am a chainsmoking courier, but really, not that much to say about cigarettes and bicycles. you can say four things and then you start repeating yourself. thats all. xolegs (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 25th, 2008
6:53 pm	http://www.flickr.com/photos/teaearlgrey/2129389229/ trying to improve my posture, mostly because of this picture. i went to a physio therapist in kelowna and he was probably the most stereotypically beautiful physiotherapist ever. his giant teeth-mouth was gleaming in the most unoffensive way. i probably blushed when he was making me try different back stretches. weird. working for pdx is pretty awesome. except for fucking up on waybills and forgetting to put stuff going to prince george where its supposed to go (in the ACE bin, with the bill in a sticky window thing, and an "if undeliverable please call PDX" sticker. keep the white copies for myself). im moving out of my place in strathcona. im going to live by myself in a building at alexander and gore. im not moving until june, which is making me anxious. its a really nice place. i just want to live there. right now. i hope living by myself won't mess up my social skills, i mean, even more than they are now. you know when you always feel nervous when you talk to people, and worry about what they are thinking or what you are saying and how it must sound stupid, and then you hear from someone that they think you're so socially confident and outgoing. thats weird. i mean, can't you all tell im scared shitless? (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 14th, 2008
11:55 pm	harsh Do you have good taste in music? Your Result: Your boring   You are a really boring person you should consider testoserone pills energy drinks etc. You are basically just really really boring and you need some balls ... yeah HORRIBLE tastes   Good tastes   Great tastes:D   Do you have good taste in music? Make Your Own Quiz Current Music: shang-a-lang (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 9th, 2008
1:53 am	an oldie (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 5th, 2008
5:28 pm	the past couple days have mostly been filled with sleeping in, then going to the theatre. i went to the sushi place that my dad said would hire me, but they didnt. no biggie. i havent had a cigarette since monday. combine that with being around family mostly all the time, its kind of stressful. not as bad as i thought it would be. i have cigarettes, but maybe ill try and not smoke for a while and see how it goes. i was going to find some kelowna kid to crush on, but then i realized that: 1)i dont really care 2)all the people here are crazy sheltered and 3)look at me like like they can tell ive slept in a dumpster before. its creepy. but my sister and i took photo booth pictures today. quite good i think. Current Music: the big chill soundtrack (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 29th, 2008
10:59 pm	also: sweatpants. i had completely forgot about the compelling force in this town that makes everyone wear sweatpants. i mean, everywhere! to the store, to the movies, to the mall. im not really that shallow when it comes to clothing choice. i just dont like thinking about everything as if it were a volleyball game in grade nine gym class when all i did was hide in the change room. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
8:17 pm	hitchhiking with bike for first time, relatively easy. three rides, mom picked me up in merritt (i love my mom). the trucker who gave me the longest ride seemed like a cool old dude but it quickly disintegrated first to "there was a black guy driving that car. ive never had much to do with black people" to things like "theres girl truckers sure, they make money hooking on the side. sure they make lots of money. is that how you paid for your bike?" oh well. truckers will always be lonely gross old dudes. theres no around it. my dad is listening to the beach boys. now its abba. we are going to watch the bourne identity, then i am going to drink with old school friends and probably talk about the time we did acid or the time we got really drunk or the time blah blah blah... on the plus side my dad is buying me cycling shoeeeessssss!! so cool. and i get to ride my track bike around kelowna for the first time. which is awesome because kelowna is really flat and no one knows what to think of a girl with tattooes on some weird looking brakeless bike. its awesome. xolegs (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 23rd, 2008
8:11 pm	thank god summer is almost here. at least, the past few days make it feel that way, and thats good enough for me. i think seasonal depression is getting a lot of people down. everyone i talk to is like "yeah, im anxious and kind of frustrated and tired a lot of the time". me too. summer in the city..hurrry uppp. i'd like to take this oppurtunity to point out how rad the people we know are. if we didn't have them, it would be boring. we'd have to hang out with people like we did in high-school, where you don't really have anything in common and all you can bond on is skipping school to get drunk or smoke weed or go downtown and drink coffee and smoke cigarettes. which is cool, but real friendship is nicer. im hungover and feeling sentimental, get over it. that being said... some stuff to do tonight if you are down, or up: The Astoria JAWS NEEDLES KAREN FOSTER HIT THE BRICKS 9pm, $5 or HOKOS (EARLY SHOW) 9pm, $5 Terror Bird Nu Sensae Nihilist Party Gr8-2000 THEN EMERGENCY ROOM (LATE SHOW) $8, cheap beer Monotonix (From Israel) Shearing Pinx Mutators Black Mage xolegs Current Music: careeer suicide (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, February 15th, 2008
2:36 am	usually when someones drunk and just recently single and wants to makeout it's usually because of all those factors and not because they might be into you. right? right. i feel stupid posting about this on the intra-web, but what else am i gonna do? punch my wall a couple times and think about it for hours, think about how i said no when really i wanted to be like yeah. but i feel better about it. y'know, having made that decision to be like, i'm not gonna be the drunk makeout. fuck that. ive got better things to do. like sleep and go to work (in 4 hours!!). g'night. xolegs (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 11th, 2008
6:37 pm	okay. so im having mood swings hella crazy lately. right now where its "yeah im fine, life's pretty cool". and then other days its as if the world is going to end because it rained and i got cut off by a mini van or something. its not even menstrual. i think it may be my diet or lack thereof. but you know when you just dont care about eating? does this sound uber-insane/manic depressive or something? im just lazy. other news...i made a sweet tape shelf out of some discarded draw that has an old snakes and ladders board glued to it. so cool. oh and a jawbreaker cover band, maybe, with these dudes james and todd. i hope i can pull off the vocals. i mean not as well as blake whats-his-face but maybe just not be terrible. or something. PS. did you hear the rumor that they are getting back together? probs not true. in fact if they could just come over, and play "kiss the bottle" in my living room, that would be reunion tour enough for me. can we make this happen? and hey, remember when i use to crush out really hard on everyone? now its in reverse. i bet its my babe receptors in my brain being killed off by alcohol abuse. shitty buzz. yours in spinsterdom, xxooxoxleggykinsleggeroo (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 3rd, 2008
9:57 pm	bummed on: me feeling so alone and all my close friends being in relationships with other friends being drunk and accentuating being bummed being so broke i cant even afford to buy my way out of depression reluctance to changing the things in my life that i dont like avoiding tasks that i want to do (ie. loft bed) being addicted to cigarettes and beer being broke, did i mention being broke? having this job that i could easily have for the rest of my life and coming to the realization that if i dont make a move to change anything, its not like something will definitely com up and make me change. being annoyed when im not naturally good at something my dad not trusting me to make adult decisions the fact that if i didnt call anyone to hang out, i probably wouldnt hang out with anyone, save after work with courier compadres. dirty dishes stoked on: my new roommates, they are quite awesome making mix tapes on my new tape to tape, thanks to miranda for lending me the ten dollars hopefully doing something with my life hopefully feeling better at some point. Current Music: dinosaur jr (9 Comments |Comment on this)
3:58 am	i dont really know about all this. totally arbitrary and stupid. is that the right word? arbitrary, i mean. not stupid. funny how they give you a mere three options. three! if only life could be so easy. Klein Sexual Orientation Grid I scored an average of 1.9 0 1 2 3 4 5 6 Heterosexual Bisexual Homosexual Meaning This result can also be related to the Kinsey Scale: 0 = exclusively heterosexual 1 = predominantly heterosexual, incidentally homosexual 2 = predominantly heterosexual, but more than incidentally homosexual 3 = equally heterosexual and homosexual 4 = predominantly homosexual, but more than incidentally heterosexual 5 = predominantly homosexual, incidentally heterosexual 6 = exclusively homosexual Summary The idea of this excercise is to understand exactly how dynamic a person's sexual orientation can be, as well as how fluid it can be over a person's lifespan. While a person's number of actual homo/heterosexual encounters may be easy to categorize, their actual orientation may be completely different. Simple labels like "homosexual", "heterosexual", and "bisexual" need not be the only three options available to us. Take the quiz (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 1st, 2008
3:33 am	quit my job today (yesterday? what time is it?) got a new one with a different company in the same breath. fuck 400 dollar pay cheques. its funny, because at one point, 400 dollars would have seemed like so much. do we just automatically attain expensive responsibilities as we grow old? or is it just the cost of living that is rising so fast that it is invisible to the naked eye? also, had a good talk with a select few about how ive been anxiously bummed lately, and realised that everyone else is feeling the same way. its just winter. and life. winter life. p.s. take me to portland to see limp wrist xolegs (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 28th, 2008
4:19 pm	the story so far i borrowed this idea from becca. random things about my life so far: i wanted to be an astronomer when i was around eight years old. until my dad shot me down with "well you don't really have good enough marks in science and math". bummer. i started writing a novel around this time about this girl who wanted to be an astronaut (her first word was "space") so she snuck aboard a spaceship and got to go into outerspace with some cool astronaut dudes. i used to write really long fantasy stories in grade 6 with my friend taeya fitzpatrick. we would trade back and forth and critique. in grade 5 i got suspended for canning a guy with a pair of "725 original" boots from walmart that my mom got me. we later ending up "dating" (which in grade five means attending 'return of the jedi' in theaters with my aunt and my sister). i had a tree house next to a walnut tree and my fingers would be constantly orange from picking at unripe walnuts. i also wanted to be a flying squirrel, or a pegasus, until i was about 6 or 7. then realized i couldn't be an animal when i grew up. i was devastated. i lied to this kid in grade 2, and told him my dad was a magician, and could make me fly on a broomstick for hallowe'en. my first job was working in a guitar shop in kelowna for six dollars an hour. i completed task such as the other dudes' dishes and dusting amps. the longest job i have ever held down is being a bike courier (2+ years). i used to be really in love with devon sawa, the backstreet boys, J.T.T., brad renfro, etc. i missed out on the grunge thing. i have never been in love, maybe almost once, and the longest relationship i've ever had lasted 2 months. i have lived in kelowna, east vancouver, and toronto. right now my goals in life are to: get more tattoos, play shows in one of the bands im in, become a railway conductor, and ultimately, live by a river and chop wood and grow stuff. xo legs Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: some 4yr old boy walking around saying "shit, shit, shit" (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 25th, 2008
6:04 pm	tonight at the alf house adam todd fundraiser keg party with bands and stuff. tomorrow night at casa del artiste a bazillion bands are playing, including chuck norris, in stride...and some more. also tomorrow night is the emergency room strathcona's one year anniversary. so if you like bands like vapid, petroleum by-products, cheap cover, and cheap beer, come on down. oh yeah and hey, my life is dull lately, thats why i havent posted or anything. thinking about taking a 17 week course and becoming a railway conductor. thats about it. hope to see you all at the alf tonight. xolegs (4 Comments |Comment on this)